If I ever just did was I was supposed to in this life, my life would be extraordinary. No doubt I would have been a proper nerd, class valedictorian and most likely to succeed in the yearbook. But I had too much flavor to live a life like that when I was younger. Instead I'd rather be the girl no one ever forgets, the person with the hype, because things like being Popular and flirting with boys come naturally for someone with a mouth that smiles and speaks like mine does. I've got a mouth that doesn't stop running and likes to waste a lot of time that you're still willing to spend on me. I have material wealth that's caused me to splurge on guilty pleasures that end up collecting dust in a closet. I've got a mentality that reads, "Live like you'll die tomorrow, dream as if you'll live forever" which takes away from my weekends set aside for studying. I've got a face that can manipulate the world and recently I've realized, though I've always known I was spoilt, I never took advantage of it as I am doing now or let it show so obviously. It's easy to see that I'm the error of my own trials and tribulations, a warrior of the actions I make, the soldier fighting the war of my life, the survivor of my mistakes.
It's puzzling to think about but perfect because puzzles intrigue me. I like to piece things together. If something is too set in place, leave it to me to tangle things together and meticulously pick and pull 'til the knots fall apart. My life is a prime example. I'm not trying to toot my own horn, I'm just saying I've never been one to take the easy way out of anything. I've naturally tangled myself into sticky situations finding out logic and strategic ways to pull myself out of the quicksand.
My parents shake their heads in dismay at my ethic and knack for always causing ten times more stress and pressure than needed to go all the way around a situation than directly through it. The easiest way from point A to B is in a straight line, but I'm complicated so I'd rather set up a twisted obstacle course and cross the finish line last with a lifetime's worth of experience and the gained knowledge of knowing what not to do next time. Easy is boring; I don't need God to challenge me, I'll do it for Him.
In respect to college, I'm not one of those "I chose a simple major" student who sits in the classroom and realizes if I do a few simple algebraic equations and functions, read some books and formulate a thesis I'll walk in Spring, gap and gown fitted, and enter a world where I must manage my parent's legacy because I can't find a job with my cumulative GPA of three something and an empty resume. For most, this is reality. (Similarly, being a Nurse, isn't any better in this damaged society.) However, I feel like most people have chosen something to major in that's a lot less complex than Biology. At maximum, they'll spend 3 hours, one semester and one unit in a lab whereas I'll be spending 33 semester hours on top of everything they do. So yes, Biology is more time consuming than your major and I've got to put in a lot more effort. There aren't just right and wrong answers, these are processes, practicals, and percentage errors that my life will depend on.
I am an aspiring biologist. I could have chosen to be anything but this was my passion. A dream that I've dreamt for a thousand years. And it is far from being the easy way out. I'll study the world around you and me. I'll attempt to fix the earth as if it was my jigsaw puzzle; no numbers to crunch, no essays to write, nothing but me and my environment, a box with puzzle pieces of different shapes and a few petri dishes of sample.
Graduating in four years is the norm but as always, I've found that the path I chose to walk across lead me to a deficit. The state is broke; more so than I thought. It gives too much emphasis to Business because they think that's what's gonna help us reach shore safely in this economic depression. The world, which gave us the ability to build everything when we rose from primordial ooze 3.5 billion years ago, comes second to the dollar bill and its value today. I LOATHE BUSINESS MEN. When the budget cut came it slashed science by the wayside and increased wretched Accounting's force by two. Forcing me to invest 36,000 dollars in the value, moral and ethics of the Catholic school system yet again and a counselor who told me it was Okay to be a super senior because I'd chosen to take a path more complicated than the average college student who does just enough to get by and faces a major employment problem later. Furthermore, I talked to my eldest and estranged sister who just delivered her first child, my nephew. I've always looked up to her and her BioChemistry degree which she attained from San Francisco State University back when they admired the field of science. She told me it was grueling but she finished in 4 1/2 years. That made me feel better.
So yes, I'm dissing your major against mine. And for that I'm sorry but for the next 3 years I'll be busting my ass for that cap and gown, which is pretty useless in today's society anyway unless you happen to know the right people and which ass to kiss. If you're a Biology major whose completed the program in four years with a current job that allows you to drive the newest BMW and take both Thanksgiving and Christmas off to see your family, than tell me I'm wrong. Tell me I'm mediocre. Tell me that I've fallen behind. Tell me I'm just your average. I don't mind finishing last if it means the effort will show, the knowledge will be present, and the job will available. I love college and though it'll be a drag to see everyone graduate, then be stuck at home trying to find work during my final lap in year five, I'll know what I did was right. I'll know that I didn't settle for anything less. I know I followed my dreams from point A to B. I know I'll finish last but, in life, I'll succeed first.
It Is Written.
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